lame thoughts.

i know you have my email. i know you've never once used it.

is it ridiculous, then, that i check my email multiple times a day to see if you wrote something.
i believe it is. i'll probably keep checking it though. i just want you to say something.

this weekend i pretended not to look when you walked away. my peripherals always see the truth though. you dont want me, or anyone really. thats ok. just when you do decide to want someone, please make it me.

additionally, you signed my yearbook "i <3 u so much c u next year" and hilariously, i over thought the meaning of it. like, maybe you really loved me then and i was too stupid to see it. cause id go back to those brace-wearing days and kiss you. then i thought, how many other yearbooks did you write that in. but i dont think you wrote it in anyone elses.

and finally, you brought up a conversation we had a year ago, which i didnt really even remember. that made me feel fabulous. thank you for giving me back that memory.

i always feel like i swallowed hot liquid when im around you.

im finding myself becoming territorial over you, and that is most definitly not fair to us.
if you could just wake up now please.